January 30, 2010
(break)
i need to take a break from posting things onto the internet. i used to be so comfortable with myself but lately i hate who i've become. i started thinking about ideas that flickr and tumblr would like instead of things i was actually inspired by. i used to be so relaxed when taking pictures but now i get into this crazy mood where i yell at people when they're goofing off. i take it too seriously now. when i take pictures with isabel, she's always so silly, making faces and singing and i yell at her to shut up. i say stupid stuff because i forget people actually read what i write and i get nervous that no one will like the pictures i post to my flickr instead of posting things i like. i know i'm not sick of photography, i'm just sick of having my photography on the internet. i'll continue to shoot but i'm just not going to share any of my pictures until i know i'm ready for it again.
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oh my goodness...
ReplyDeletewhat a shame. i have only just discovered your blog & photos.
i love that you use film and your photos are simply amazing & beautiful.
i was so excited to find your blog.
anyway...just wanted to let you know.
thats such a shame, i adore your photos :(
ReplyDeletebut you're right, you should be taking photos for you. I hope that you feel better soon because i'll miss seeing your inspring photos :( x
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ReplyDeleteYou do the right choice. If you become crazy with internet stuff, stop internet for a while. I have made the same things for another thing, and it helps me to find myself.
ReplyDeleteGood luck.
I think your photographs are visual poetry and plan to share a few (and a link back here) on my blog this week. I hope you'll be back again with your wonderful talent some day soon (whenever it feels right to you)
ReplyDeletexo
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for me, you have the best film. ever. so of course, we all need breaks. so replenish yourself, and we'll all see you when you're back. :)
ReplyDeletei only just now found your blog...your images are so lovely. i hear what you are saying though...i have the same issues and i struggled with them through college (i did creative writing), what you have here is great and i hope you find your answers.
ReplyDeletethank you so much everyone <3
ReplyDeleteMary, please don't let anyone's opinion's or comments stress you out. It's obvious that God has given you a gift and you should use that gift. I think you are a very wise young woman to take a step back and re-evaluate what you are doing and why and getting back to the love and joy of your art and not just doing it to please others. After all, isn't that when we do our best work? When we love what we are doing? I hope to see more of your work someday. Take care.
ReplyDeletejust came across your blog to see that you won't be posting right now...as a photographer it is totally understandable. you start to conform to what other's want and not what you want.
ReplyDeletemay the world inspire you once more.
I totally understand. I am a studying photography at school and I am currently going through exactly the same thing. I feel myself not understanding why I originally loved photography and often question it's worth in my life. But I have come to the same conclusion as you, it's not photography it's the pressure to produce that you put on yourself based on others expectations. Thanks for your honesty.
ReplyDeleteOh Mary your photographs are absolutely wonderful! I understand where you are coming from - I have a lot of things I don't post or am afraid to post because I am a bit of a perfectionist & I worry if anyone will like them or not... I also know that no matter how wonderful people tell you your work is deep down it is still a feeling that you have to overcome & know when you are ready to share - I totally get it.
ReplyDeleteSo while I am not trying to push you into sharing I want you to know that your work is truly magnificent & I hope you decide to share it with us all again very soon... I wish I was half the photographer you are! :)
xoxo
I can understand what you mean about wanting to please people, but I think you'll always take wonderful photos...I don't think you could take a bad one if you tried. =]
ReplyDeleteBest wishes with your break--I hope it's good for you, & I will be so happy to see your photos when you post again!
oh my gosh i know exactly what you are talking about! ugh it is just so sad...i agree. litteraly when i take photos sometimes i picture it on my photostream. I have come to realize that this is not the way it should be, but I can't help it. It's like im so obsessed with taking pictures that I am proud of ...and pictures that will get comments that i don't even have fun with it...
ReplyDeleteI learned from your comment...that your right..I should take photos of memories with my friends instead of snapping at them (even if i'm not litteraly mad) to look more bored or thoughtful.
anyways thanks for that! but still...post your pictures, because i love them (:
Also...your pictures at the abandoned house are quite beautiful If i do say so myself (:
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